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    Jessey, Henry Author Profile
    Author Jessey, Henry
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    Exceeding Riches of Sarah Wight Text Profile
    Genre Religious Biography
    Date 1647
    Full Title The exceeding Riches of grace advanced By the Spirit of Grace, in an Empty Nothing Creature, viz. Mris Sarah Wight, Lately hopeles and restles, her soule dwelling as far from Peace or hopes of Mercy, as ever was any. Now hopefull, and joyfull in the Lord, that hath caused light to shine out of darknes; that in and by this Earthen Vessell, holds forth his Own eternall love, and the Glorious Grace of his dear Son, to the chiefest of sinners. Who desired that others might hear and know, what the Lord had done for her soul, (that was so terrified day & night:) and might neither presume, nor despair and murmure against God, as shee hath done
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    I. TOuching her Earthly Parentage. This Mris
    Sarah Wight, was daughter to Mr. Thomas
    Wight, sometimes of the Auditors Office, and of the
    Exchequers Office: Her earthly dwelling is now with
    her faithfull Mother Mris Mary Wight, widow, in
    Lawrence Pountney-Lane, by Caning-street in LONDON:
    Whose Father was Mr Edward Purcel Esquire,
    of Ansloo neer Shrewbury: and whose former Husband
    was Mr. Edward Vaughan Esquire, the Kings
    Receiver, and Surveyer for Northampton-shire, and
    for Rutland-shire: by whom shee had her sonne
    Mr. Jonathan Vaughan, now of Alsoules in Oxford.
    Who not long since writ thence a Consolatory
    Letter to this his sorrowfull Sister SARAH,
    therein saying thus: Doest thou despaire, because
    thy Tempter is a Lyon for his strength? Behold the
    Lyon of the Tribe of Judah, Christ the mighty
    God: who can and will deliver thee out of his paw.
    A fountain laid open for sinne, and for uncleannesse.
    I verily beleeve, that although for the present
    you lie among the pots, of no use: yet thy God will
    make thee a Vessell of Honour, an instrument fit for
    thy Masters use; whereby he will square sinners, to
    his own glory, &c. This in his Letter is now fulfilled,
    and fulfilling. Shee that was born of flesh
    and bloud, borne in sinne; and that was by Nature
    a childe of wrath: is now borne from above,
    borne of God, having given to her Faith
    and Love: and hath Jesus Christ
    to her Brother, and God to her

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    Father, and her dwelling place: He
    dwelling in her, and shee in him: Let
    him and her that glorieth, not glory
    in the flesh, but in the Lord alone.
    II. Touching her Education: In the time of her
    Mothers deep afflictions of Spirit, and sore Temptations,
    shee was well trained up in the Scriptures,
    by her godly faithfull Grand-mother, Mris Wight
    of Daintree. And when the Lords time of Love
    was, that he vouchsafed to manifest his Grace
    in Christ to her Mothers soule, then the Lord
    brought her home to her, shee being then about 9
    yeares old. Shee gave her selfe much to read and
    study the Scriptures: Which though shee then understood
    not aright; yet the Lord by his Holy
    Spirit brought to her remembrance, and opened to
    her since her restoring, what formerly shee had
    read; for great comfort and soul-refreshing to her
    selfe, and to many others; as hereafter followeth.
    Which is a great encouragement to all that feare
    God, to train up their children in the holy Scriptures;
    as, 2 Tim. 3. 15. Chap. 1. 5. Prov. 22. 6. Deut.
    6. 6, 7. Gen. 18. 19.
    III. Touching her afflictions. From her childhood
    she was of a tender heart, and oft afflicted in
    Spirit: Her Temptations were not so great, till
    shee was about twelve yeares old; since which, they
    have continued with more violence till Aprill 6.
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    1647. it being about 4. yeares. Shee is not sixteen
    yeeres old as her Mother saith, till September
    following.
    The beginning of her more violent Temptations
    was thus: Her superiour bid her doe a small
    thing, judging it meet and lawfull: Shee did it,
    doubtingly, fearing it was unlawfull: and as shee
    did it, a great Trembling in her hands and body
    fell upon her: being condemned in her selfe. About
    a moneth after, returning home, having been abroad,
    shee had lost her hood, and knew shee had
    lost it. Her Mother asked her, for her hood. Shee
    suddenly answered, My Grand-mother hath it.
    Her heart condemned her instantly, and trembled
    againe exceedingly. And these were the first chiefe
    occasions of her deep despaire: And upon this,
    shee had cast into her Conscience, that shee was
    both a Thiefe, and a lyar, and was terrified ever since,
    that shee was shut out of Heaven, and must be
    damn'd, damn'd.
    In the last four yeeres, shee was oft in such extremities,
    shee could beleeve nothing but Hell and
    Wrath - to be her Portion; and other times, that
    there was no heaven, nor hell, but in our Conscience:
    and that shee was damn'd already, being an unbeleever:
    and therefore if shee could but dispatch
    this life of hers, there was an end of her sorrows.
    A subtle deceit of the old Serpent! Hence shee oft
    attempted wickedly to destroy her selfe, as by
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    out her braines, wretchedly bruising, and wounding
    her self. The chiefe cause of such weaknes since
    But the Lord who is her life, and loved her
    then in her bloud, he wonderfully prevented her
    destruction, many wayes. Sometimes by one or
    other at that instant, sometimes staying her in the
    acting, when no creature was by: Sometimes by
    bringing to her minde some choice Scripture: as
    this, No weapon form'd against thee, shall prosper, Isa.
    54.17. or this, None shall take them out of my hand;
    or, out of my Fathers hand Joh. 10.28, 29. This
    stop'd her sinfull act, but the comfort stayed not.
    Many precious Ministers came to comfort her:
    In London these, Mr Thomas Goodwin, Mr Barker,
    Mr Lockyar, Mr Palmer their Minister in Lawrence
    Pountney, Mr Sprigge, Mr John Simpson, and others.
    And these came to her in or neer Shrewsbury,
    Mr Hildershame of Felton, Mr Paget Father of Dr
    Paget now of London Mr Wright of Wellington,
    Mr Smith, Mr Fisher, Mr Blake, Mr Morgan Floyd,
    Mr Moston: All these and many moe godly Ministers
    and precious Christians, being acquainted
    with her sad condition, endeavoured to comfort
    her: and shee gladly would have received comfort;
    but it was then hid from her.
    Some glimpse shee had, especially by meanes of
    her kinsman, Mr John Browne, of Shrewsbury a
    faithfull and loving man and by one whom he
    brought with him, viz. Mr Daniel Floyd: but it was
    soon ecclipsed againe; and shee remained in grievous
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    horrour day and night; concluding shee was
    a Cast-away, a Reprobate, walking daily in the
    midst of fire and brimstone, as one in Hell already.
    Till the Lord who had loved her with an
    everlasting love, and in loving kindnesse prevented
    her ruine, at last restored comforts to her, and to
    those that had prayed and mourned for her.
    And since her much prayed- and hoped-for-deliverance,
    amongst many that have visited her,
    were these Ministers; Mr Palmer, Mr Sprigge, and
    Mr Simpson beforesaid, Mr Peters, Mr Charnock of
    London, Mr Atherley of the Charterhouse with his
    wife, Mr Hide of Wighton in Yorkshire, and the
    Relator. Also the Lady Willoughby, the Lady Renula,
    and the Lady Clotworthy, the Lady Vermuiden,
    with her daughters Mris Sarah, and Mris Katharine,
    Sir Ric: Philips, and his Lady, dau: to Dr Oxenbridg,
    Sir Richard Saltonstall, with his Lady, Dr Coxe, Dr
    Debote, Dr Worsley, Dr Paget, Physicians; Mris Palmer,
    wife to Mr Palmer. Also Mris Fines, wife to my
    Lord Says eldest Son, and Mris Harrison, wife to the
    Chamberlain of London, Mris Sarah Jones, wife to Mr
    Tho. Jones Esquire of Tower-hill, Col. Langhams
    wife, daughter to the Lady Roberts; Mr and Mris
    Liggon, Capt. Price, and his wife, Mris Wilson at
    Nags-head; Mris Lane, Mr P. Barbon, and his wife;
    Mris Owen, and Mris Hannah Allen, Bookseller, Mris
    Manning of Tower-street, Mris Elizabeth Waldo,
    sister to Mr John Pocock; Mr Ellis and Mris Ellis, Mris
    Hawkins, Mris Flood, and Mris Thare, all neer London-stone;
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    and her cousins Mr Brigs Taylor and
    his wife, Mris Barney of Norfolk and of their neerer
    neighbours, Mr Lewes Merchant, Mris Thurrel,
    Mris Grace Philips, MrisDupper, Mris Aires, &c. Besides
    her Brother Mr Jonathan Vaughan, of Alsoules
    in Oxford, & her uncle Mr James Wight of Southa:
    and his wife, and other two Ants, Mris Anne and
    Mris Mary Wight. Many moe might be named, who
    have seen her of late, and have been much affected
    in hearing of the Lords wonderfull workings, in,
    and towards her: But these are sufficient to witnesse
    what they have seen, or heard, and beleeve:
    many of them being persons of note, and of much
    esteem in London amongst them that fear the Lord.
    The naming of them, the Relator desires may not
    be offensive to any of them, seeing 'tis done for the
    more assuring this great and memorable worke of
    Gods mercy, to some that like Thomas will not
    beleeve it, unlesse at least they may speak with
    some, that have been present with her.
    About a moneth before her great deliverance, Satan
    having but a short time so to torment her, her
    stormes and tempests were greatest of all. Shee was
    grievously hurried with Temptations; so terrified,
    shee could not rest at all, for many dayes and
    nights together. Whilst shee was able to goe abroad,
    her Mother would have her goe with her
    to heare Sermons, on the Lords dayes, and on the
    Lecture-days there. One Lecture-day shee was gone
    forth before her Mother; who missing her, went
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    to the Assembly, and not finding her there, came
    forth, and suddenly went, and sent towards
    Thames to seek her: where shee had been, to have
    cast her selfe in, but was stayd from it by the
    power and goodnesse of God: and being found,
    shee had a command on her spirit to goe to heare
    that Sermon, and her Mother coming to her, shee
    readily yeelded to goe with her Mother to the
    Lecture there. Where was proved, what favour
    God will shew towards the stock of the Jewes,
    that he will graff multitudes of them into their own
    Olive
    , pardoning their sinnes against Christ, restoring
    them to great dignity, &c. He that preached
    went in to Mris Wights house there after the
    Sermon, and spake with her daughter, asking her,
    if the Lord spake any peace to her thereby. Shee
    answered, shee would not for all the world, but shee had
    heard that Sermon. Being asked, why so? Shee said,
    That God will shew mercy to the Jewes; and they are
    the basest people on earth; that so hate the Name of
    Christians, and much more Christ himselfe: and
    yet that God will call them; This supported her a
    little at that present; but it stayed not with her,
    and shee was againe under horrid Temptations,
    to beleeve there was no God, and no Devill: no Heaven,
    and no Hell, but what shee felt within her.
    One day being strongly carried on in that temptation,
    that there was no other Hell, but here in the
    Conscience, As that famous Mris Honywood had said
    and done with a Venice Glasse, who said shee was
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    as sure to be damn'd, as that was to break; and therewith
    threw it from her to break it; and yet it
    brak not; so did shee with a little white drinking
    cup, and earthen cup; shee said, As sure as this
    cup shall breake, there is no other Hell: and therewith
    shee threw the cup with violence, against the far
    side of the chamber; and though it light against
    the wood, it brak not. Her mother took it up, and
    said, Loe here child, it is not broke. Shee got it againe,
    and suddenly said and did it so againe, and again,
    and once against the edge of the door: thus shee
    struggled, and did foure or five times, and yet it
    brake not; but at the fift time a little nip brake
    out. And now since the Lord hath created peace
    to her, shee hath desired to drinke still out of that
    her white cup: till their Water-bearer unawares
    cast it downe, and then it brake all to pieces.
    In her despairing fits, shee severall times would
    turne to the places in Job, and in Jeremy, where
    they cursed the day of their birth; and shee said to
    this effect; Job cursed the day wherein he was borne,
    and said, Wherefore hast thou brought me forth of the
    womb? Oh, that I had given up the ghost, and no eye
    had seen me.
    Shee turning to the places, Job 3.3.
    Job 10.18. And Jer. 20. 14. to the end Jeremie
    cursed the man that brought tidings of his birth, with
    bitter curses, because his mothers womb was not his
    grave, and said; Wherefore came I out of the wombe,
    to see toile and sorrow, that my dayes should be consumed
    with shame?
    But shee said, Have not I much more
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    cause to say so, then they had? for they were in a blessed
    condition: but I am curs'd, and must be a fire-brand
    of Hell for ever.
    These and many other desperate expressions,
    shee frequently used, especially in the last moneth
    of her sorrowes. When they encreased daily, so
    that her soule was exceedingly troubled, and shee
    was, as it were all shattered to pieces. And shee
    was so weary of her life, and of her selfe, and of
    every thing, shee was never at such a passe, in such
    extremitie, in all her life before.
    Her tender and good Mother, attending on her
    continually day and night, to prevent her mischieving
    her selfe; being still upheld with great
    hopes, that the Lord in his good time, would
    come in to her with his consolations, yea, shee was
    verily perswaded so. as was also her Brother in
    Oxford, And this made her sore taske the more
    easie; which els had been intolerable. Yet when
    this extremitie had continued long, so that for
    many dayes and nights together, her mother had
    taken no rest. At last shee was even wearied out
    with continuall watchings, and to the end her selfe
    might enjoy some rest, to prevent harme to her
    selfe, shee had spoke to a friend, desiring that her
    daughter might be for a little season with her;
    which her friend was very willing unto, and her
    daughter was desirous to goe with her, that her
    Mother might enjoy rest. But the Lord prevented
    both in his goodnesse. For when her friend was
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    come, her daughter was taken with such an exceeding
    trembling, and such extremity of sorrow
    and trouble and weaknes, that shee was not able
    to goe with her. A forerunner of her deliverance.
    Then her Mother procured a maid that feared
    God, to help to look to her, who came that same
    day of her so trembling, being Tuesday Aprill 6.
    When the maid beforesaid came to her, shee found
    her weeping most bitterly, & wringing her hands
    grievously, saying, I am a Reprobate, a Castaway, I
    never had a good thought in all my life. I have been under
    sinne ever since I can remember, when I was but a
    childe, &c.
    This heavinesse was greatest, this night was
    darkest of all, when the day, the joyfull time of
    her deliverance was neer at hand. And like as at
    the beginning of her grievous despairing, about
    foure yeeres agoe, upon those two sinnes beforesaid,
    a great trembling fell upon her at the beginning
    of her deep despaire and trouble: so now, at
    the ending there of, the like trembling fell upon
    her, such as shee never had at any other time.
    And now, thus trembling exceedingly, and weeping,
    and wringing her hands, shee said to this effect:
    My earthly Tabernacle is broken all to pieces;
    and what will the Lord doe with me? If I should hang
    on Gibbets, if I should be cut in pieces, if I should dye
    the cruellest death that ever any did, I have deserv'd it,
    I would still justifie God, aye if he cast me to hell.
    Thus the Lord caused Job, to humble himselfe, and
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    justifie the Lord, when his restoring was at hand.
    Her hands and her feet were clunched, so as shee
    could not stand. Shee was tempted to blaspheme
    God and dye. And when shee was urged to speak,
    her tongue was smitten. Afterward shee being laid
    down, shee said to her Mother, Ile lye still, and heare
    what God will say to me: He will speak Peace, Peace.
    If God will speak a word of Peace at the last moment,
    I should be contented. Then shee desired them that
    none might trouble her, but that shee might lie in
    peace. And shee lay still, as in a sleep, or as in a
    trance rather, from that tuesday night, Aprill 6.
    till the last day of that week cald Saturday at
    night; except when shee cald for a little water to
    drink, and drunk two or three cups of water. No
    other sustenance shee took all that time. And this
    was the time of love, when the exceeding riches of
    Grace was advanced.
    April 20. at night, there being divers neighbours
    and loving friends come together to see her,
    Mris Collet, Mris Caron, Mris Dupper, the Relator, and
    divers others, about twelve or moe, which greatly
    desired to heare her speake, being much taken and
    greatly refreshed with what they had heard of her,
    thanksgivings having been made in her behalfe,
    both in that parish, and in Ab-Church their neighbour
    Parish, and els-where, where prayers had
    been put up in her behalfe, shee now lying still,
    and had not spoken two dayes together since April
    6.
    These desiring if the will of God were so, that
    they might heare her selfe speak: shee lying with a
    linnen cloth over her eyes, which were very weak;
    the maid told her, Mr Jessey was there; he being
    in the company, neer to her, shee then began to
    speak to him, and said; O magnifie the Lord with
    me, for he hath delivered mee from all my feares: not
    from one, but from all my feares. This shee spake, as
    all that follows, with a low voyce, in a humble,
    modest, melting manner, her teares sometimes
    stopping her speech. He and the rest, listned, and
    were greatly affected in hearing her. It cannot affect
    so much in hearing it at second hand, as if you
    had heard her selfe, with such brokennes of heart
    uttering it. Proceeding on thus, which presently

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    was writ down: He hath regarded the low estate,
    the base estate of his hand-maid. I rejoyce in him. I
    mourn over him, whom I have pierced. It was not Judas
    or Souldiers so much, as I that pierced him. I thought
    I was the bad Theef: but he hath said to mee as to the
    good Theef, Thou shalt be with me in Paradise.
    The earthly Paradise, was a Type of the Heavenly Paradise.
    That was fading and lost; but this endures for
    ever.
    O praise the Lord with me, for he hath heard mee,
    and looked on me, the vilest of sinners, the worst, the
    chiefest of sinners: On me, that was rebellious, disobedient,
    unthankfull, unholy; a murmurer, as much as
    ever the children of Israel in the wildernesse, the teares
    oft trickling down, and shee stopping, through her
    weeping, and their murmuring kept them out of Canaan,
    but though I have so murmured, he hath saved
    me. I was at the very pits brink, at the very brink of
    hell: and the Lord fetch'd me out. And is not he worthy
    of praise? The Lamb is worthy to open the Book.
    For none in Heaven nor earth, neither men nor Angels,
    could open these brazen gates, this iron door, this
    hard heart of mine, but he. putting her hand to her
    own breast. When I confest my sin, he forgave me the
    punishment. I could never confesse my sin, till now, that
    he made knowne his mercy to me, though I sought it diligently
    to confesse it. Being asked when was this that
    shee confest her sin? Shee said, Now since I saw his
    mercy. And now he hath made known to me his mercy.
    Nothing but the sense of his mercy, could ever bring me
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    to confesse my sin with meltings. I would faine have
    got comfort by mine own workings, my own doings,
    or from a Creature, and I spake to men: but I never
    could get comfort by the creature, but the Lord himselfe
    did it. I could not love him, till he made known his
    love to me: to me, the chiefest of sinners. If all the sins
    in all the world, were in one party, I thought it was all
    nothing to mine. I could not finde any in all the Scriptures
    that obtain'd mercy, that was in my case. Yet he
    hath shew'd mercy to me, the chiefest of sinners. O, that
    he should come from the bosome of the Father, to dye for
    sinners! for me, the chiefest of sinners. If all the men
    in the world should have told me, that Christ dyed for
    me; that my sins were pardon'd, I could not have beleev'd
    them. But now, if all the men in the world, and
    Angels and Devils, should tell me they are not forgiven,
    I would not beleeve them.
    What paines did I take in going to men, to have
    them speak comfort to mee, and they could not doe it.
    But Christ did it in a moment. They that know his
    Name, will trust in him: they cannot but trust in him.
    If the world knew him, they could not but love him.
    He is the chiefest of ten thousands. He is more to be desired
    in his lowest estate, then millions of worlds, if
    millions of worlds were all in one.
    Behold, O daughter of Jerusalem: Thy King comes
    meek, that he might teach his people meeknesse. He came
    on an Asses Colt: not on a horse finely trim'd, to an untam'd
    heifer, unaccustom'd to the yoke; to me, that was
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    wild Asses colt. Surely, after I was turn'd, I repented.
    I could not turne to him, nor love him, till he shew'd
    his love to me, and turn'd me.
    Praise the Lord with me, that hath shew'd mercy on
    one in so desperate a case as I was in. I could set nothing
    before me, but curse, and hell, and wrath, night and
    day. O that others may heare what God hath done for
    such a one: I would none may despaire of Gods mercy,
    that hath done thus for me. If any did know what it
    is to murmure against God, and against a parent, as I
    have done, and felt what I have felt, they would never
    doe it.
    "The Relator having heard shee now had not eaten
    any thing at all for twenty-foure dayes or
    more, and drunk nothing in all this time since
    April 6. but onely faire water, neither that, but
    two or three little cups together, once in two or
    three dayes." He desired her, if shee could, to eat,
    to preserve life: for when the Lord saith, Thou
    shalt not kill
    : he implies the Affirmative, Thou shalt
    use all good meanes to preserve life. And though he,
    and all those present, being so affected, even to admiration,
    in hearing a child so speak, yet he wished
    her to forbear speaking too much; because it spent
    her, shee being so very weak. Shee said; In rest and
    returning shall I be saved, in quietnesse and confidence
    shall be my strength. I have Manna to eat of, he feeds
    me with hidden Manna. It was pleasant to the eye:
    but they felt no sweetnesse, by looking on it, but by tasting
    of it. When shee ceased her speaking, having
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    desired he would praise the Lord with her, he performed
    accordingly, those beforesaid being present.
    Another time, when one gave her a Poesie, shee
    looking on it, and smelling its sweetnes, commended
    the workmanship of God in the severall flowers:
    saying to this effect; The flowers are all fragrant,
    and some more fragrant then others, they have different
    colours, and different smels: and all come out of the
    earth. So are the Saints, they all are in Christ, and in
    him they all are sweet and savoury: but are of different
    strength, and judgement. The strong should bear with
    the weak, and not despise them.
    April 25. being the Lords day, when many Christians
    were come to see her, amongst others, Mr and
    Mris Liggon, Mr A. Mris Jones, Mris Aires, Mris Gr. Philips,
    and others.
    In like humble manner, her face being covered,
    and lying still, as shee had kept her bed, being very
    weak, since April 6. with a low voice, as speaking
    to her selfe, shee said: How sweet is it to my
    thoughts, that an infinite God, should be a Rock and a
    Refuge to a finite Creature! a sure Rock and hiding
    place, from all stormes and tempests whatsoever.
    When the man was wounded by theeves, and lay by
    the way; the Priest and the Levite passed by: they passed
    by and helped not: The creature comfort failes: and
    then the good Samaritan helps. Christ saves, when
    none els will or can: and when there's nothing in the
    Creature to move him. The wounded man did not first

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    desire the Samaritans help. The deeper the wound is,
    the more honour to him that cures him. He set him on
    his own Beast, leaves him not to himselfe, to goe where
    he will: but brought him in, and gave two pence for
    him. I beleeve that holds out Faith and Love. None
    cared for him, refuge fail'd, then Christ helps, and takes
    care for him.
    One speaking to her of her former condition,
    how far shee was then from hope ever to obtaine
    mercy, shee said; If all the world should be saved, then
    it may be, I should be one; but els no hopes for me. That
    Peter, Mary Magdalen, David, Manasses were saved;
    it was nothing to me: no, if Judas should be saved,
    yet should not I. All their sin, and Pauls in Persecuting,
    and the Theef on the Crosse, and Judas, and
    all I could read of, or heare of, if all their sins were all
    put together in one; yet all were not so bad as I. Yet I
    obtained mercy, that thought my time of mercy was
    past, and that I was damn'd already through unbeliefe.
    I said many a time, There's no hope in thy end:
    and I thought I saw it. I may say, it was good for me
    to be afflicted, I prize his mercies the more. All terrors
    could not humble me; but the sight of his mercy did.
    I could never be kindly humbled till then. It was not
    mine own fitting, or mine own humbling, but Christs
    fitting, and Christs humbling; when he lookes upon
    such a one; that humbles. He comes with his power on
    the soule, and causeth the soule to beleeve.
    My tongue was not able to tell the misery I was in
    before continually: and now my tongue is not able to tell
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    what love and mercy hath been shewed to me, I can never
    enough expresse his Name. I would faine have been
    dissolved, to be with him. It was a hard thing for me
    to be content to live here still: but its easie for him to
    teach, to be willing to live or dye: and he hath taught
    mee.
    I was so desperate, I cared not what became of mee:
    oft was I at very brink of death and hell: even at the
    very gates, and they were open for me; and then Christ
    shut them, and fetch'd me out: at Daniel that was in
    the Lyons den, but it was his mercy that stop'd the
    mouth of the roaring Lyon, and delivered me.
    The hundreth and seventh Psalme; O that men
    would therefore praise the Lord for his goodness,
    and declare the wonders that he doth for the children
    of men.
    I would that Psalm were often read
    over. The goodnesse of God is unsearchable. How great
    is the excellency of his Majesty; that yet he would look
    upon such a one as I! I was full of Terror the week before
    I kept my bed: I rested not day nor night. I thought
    no death was bad enough for me. If all kinds of deaths
    were put together in one, it was too good for me. I walked
    continually as in fire and brimstone, for rebelling
    and murmuring against God, and against a Parent.
    When he hides his face, who is able to bear it?
    and when he gives quietnes, who then can trouble?

    Job 34.29. I can testifie the truth of both
    these. He hath spoke the word to me, Thy sins are forgiven
    thee
    ; I even I am he that blotteth out thy
    transgressions for mine owne sake.
    Jesus Christ is
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    unchangeable, therefore I was not consumed. Wee may
    say with admiration, What is man, that thou art so
    mindfull of him? or the son of man, that thou so
    regardest him! thou madest him lower then Angels.

    Jesus Christ took our nature,
    to take part of our sufferings; and that
    we should follow him in sufferings, and
    not think strange. Wee have not a High
    Priest, that cannot be touched with a feeling of our infirmities,
    but he was made like to us, that he might
    sympathize with us, Heb. 2. 17, 18. & Heb. 4. 15.
    Blesse the Lord, O my soule! Which forgiveth all thine
    iniquitie; and healeth all thine infirmity. In my misery
    my flesh and my bones pined, and consumed away,
    and I was neer to death. the Lords chearing the
    heart doth good like a medicine: I now recover
    strength. I read the Scriptures from a childe: but I
    understood not what I read till now, that I had the
    Teaching of the Spirit.
    He is worth the waiting for him. There is a blessing
    pronounced to such, Blessed are all that wait for him.
    I did not wait patiently for him. I was weary, and
    could wait no longer. But he is not weary: He faileth
    not. He lets the Creature goe his way for a time, for his
    own good, to humble him more, and shew his mercy the
    more. He hath him in a chaine, and the enemy in a
    chaine. So he hath the soule, to dispose of it. My times
    are in thy hands: that he might magnifie mercy indeed,
    and free love indeed. No soule ever was as I have
    been: I am sure of it. If all the sins of all sinners that
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    I read of, or heard talk of, were in one, it were all short
    of me. And yet tis his goodnesse that such a one as I,
    should obtaine mercy. I wish all may take heed of
    censuring the vildest creatures that
    are, seeing the Lord hath done thus
    for me the vildest Creature: but pitty
    them with teares of bloud.
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